Life has bloopers, don’t keep making ‘em
So I was talking about Scrivs the other day…while he was reading my this site. He said something like, “Oh, you’re starting another site! Haha, new domain name…not like you haven’t done that one before!”. I said something like it seemed like a good idea at the time, which led to a super deep conversation about moving forward instead of looking back at the past. Out of the blue he’ll say something real deep that causes me to reflect. Unfortunately, I was distracted (pre-occupied) and didn’t reflect. Whoops.
Yesterday I was talking to Mike. The Triad launched 3by9 and Mike was working on the design. Casually, he was talking about form and function about design interfaces and his words reminded me of what Scrivs said the other day. Then it clicked…what was bugging me for months. It just clicked. (Not one word Scrivs…seriously, not one word). The difference? Like night and day. I enjoyed things yesterday, wrote an article without it taking hours and wrote a rap (hey, I said I wrote it, I didn’t say the rap was good) and wrote two articles today. I even played some Settlers.
If I changed domain names, changed blogs, re-did my WoW characters, etc. I’m running from the main problem. Running doesn’t work. There are times in your life when you have to stand up, account for what happened to you and what you did to others, give yourself a swift kick in the ass, and live your life. After being a victim of what I went through last year I put shackles on myself and forgot THE basic principle(s). What I went threw the past year and a half threw me off focus and messed up my frame of mind. Seeing how far I was off-track (and I’m still shaking the dust off) I realized I can’t continue down that path and achieve my goals. The difference is: I don’t want to. I’d be pissed at myself if I had time to waste.
Thank you for putting up with my highs and lows the past year and a half. My sincere apologies. Being raped/stalked/almost killed can fuck up your head but staying that way? No excuse.
Emo-ing is over. Let’s do this….
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